I stared at my laptop for
hours; let's be honest, days! I kept writing then deleting, writing then
deleting, over and over. Finally my husband closed my laptop and handed me
Pinterest. He knows it’s my Fall night
preferred relaxation tool. It’s something about all the recipes, décor ideas,
and career posts that suck me in. After letting my brain wander, I realized; I
just need a break. Have you ever felt too drained to think? Still
irrationally dissecting a project at work?
Too drained to wash clothes when you get home? Yea that's me right
now. The holiday break couldn’t have come at a better time. Feeling like
Rhonda Rousey after a Holly Holm monster neck face kick thing. (PS. I love Rowdy Rousey, but I was not ready!)
We get so ambitious, focused,
yet almost foolish at times. We sometimes forget that life is a marathon
and think we need to get everything right now.
That if we don’t have whatever fantasy by some fantastical time, then we’re
off track. So, we work that 14 hour day,
erase work/life balance, volunteer for more projects, and still think we aren’t
doing enough. In turn, we barely sleep,
find humor at the bottom of a large glass of grown up juice, or troll through the
multitude of engagements, baby showers, and extravagant trips our Facebook friends
just seem to have the mysterious time and money for. So we increase our projects in hopes to be noticed and climb the ladder. Except we just pile more and more on until we have a small chaotic cloud we can't seem to get quite under control. We’ve convinced ourselves this is normal;
it’s what we have to do to get anywhere. But success is not measured by how
fast you get there, but by how long you can sustain it. I always fall victim to ‘doing too much’. I know at 5:31 PM I need to leave my work at
work, but I end up thinking about program logistics on my commute home anyway.
